Family Tragedy

 

Injustice

This was my last trip to MA before 2016.  The long twenty four month legal battle is almost over and it has changed me forever.
INJUSTICE is an upsetting word its sword will pierce your heart and burn your soul.  It takes shape in many forms.  It tests you to the max, and spits in your face whenever it can.  You seek council for security and protection just hoping you will make it through.  Over time you reflect, are there lessons to be learned?  You are angry, hopeless, disgusted, sad and lost.  You seek JUSTICE, but it comes with a high price tag one you cannot afford.  You stop fighting and finally succumb to the restraints placed upon you.  There is nothing more you can do you have exhausted all measures.  All that is left is a sense of calmness that surrounds you, and you ask yourself again, are there lessons to be learned?      Yes, there are three of them to be exact.  One is forgiveness that comes from the heart from any wrongdoing, the second is learning how this injustice was forced upon you, and understanding why it was done to you. This compassionate approach is the only way you'll find acceptance to forgive, and the courage to move forward.  The third is the hardest of all, letting go of what you cannot change leaving it all in the past, and forgetting it ever happened to you. This takes the longest to accept, because your mind seeks revenge.
These are the three most difficult lessons to learn in life.

So as I pose in front of the firms building after ten emotional visits.  I've come to realize it will be the last time I will stand here.  I appear the same physically however there is a slight attitude change, and my body language is saying something different.  Inside emotionally I'm forever altered.  I'm seasoned like a fine wine.  I feel more confident inside knowing I made it through this relentless and captive grip.  I'm seeing life differently then I ever did before.

Money they say can be the root of all evil.  People will spin on a dime when money is at hand.  To some people it is their God, and they will do just about anything under the sun to have it.  This is the INJUSTICE.

As I walk away this time around from such a never ending process.  This horrifying experience has provided me with closure, clarity, patience, understanding and growth.  Unfortunately these three important lessons which I have mentioned above, all of us must deal with one way or another during our lifetime.  Hopefully you will not be blindsided when it happens to you as it did with me. 

If there is anything I can impart to you in case this darkness shows up at your door, is to remember these lessons.  Find your faith you will need it to ease the pain.  Remember you will not fall apart even though at times you may feel alone and your going down.  You will survive through such an ordeal, and ultimately come out the other side a stronger person.  There will be a whole new definition to the meaning of unconditional love, and you'll be a much shrewder and more tolerant individual for enduring such an INJUSTICE...

Subjects To Avoid

 

Water Seeks Its Own Level

Politics and religion are two subjects one never brings up at the dinner table, or at any social event. Tensions could rise and words could be said you cannot take back. There is a definite separation between the two subjects however they seem to co-mingle when talking about politics, but not so much when talking about religion.

In politics a conservative right winged politician may say the issue at hand is a social issue not a political issue. The issue at hand is based on social beliefs especially on the subject of abortion or same sex marriage. The right to choose VS pro-life and sexual preference VS marriage. 
Think about this for a minute. If you want to bring religion into this scenario it says that a man and a women are made in perfect union to procreate and populate the world. If two women or two men are is an intimate relationship this is a social science analysis, and natural procreating cannot be achieved. Now the politician gets into these two issues and it becomes a matter of self principal. The derivative or root is religious, based upon the principals they were taught when they were young. After all if there were no religions what kind of a world would we live in?

The words (Human Rights) comes into play here. Freedom to choose VS equality. This has nothing to do with religious beliefs, but what was written in the Constitution. Yet something still creeps up into these issues with its derivative being religion. Freedom to choose is acceptable but if a women decides to deal with her body and unwanted pregnancies, then we're not sure  about that. Or equality, ever body is equal and has the right to choose, but same sex marriage, well we're not sure about that either. Contradictions which is it? On one hand it is acceptable on the other hand it is unacceptable. 
A matter of principal, strong ethical code, and high moral standards are all ones principals and beliefs to do whatever is right according to what, the sky? 
Where does the basis of these thought patterns come from? I believe it comes from some form of faith that guides this individual through life. When in the public eye such as a politician especially running for office in any political position strong principals and beliefs are valued, and respected. 
A politician has the right to speak freely on his or her own convictions. They have no right preaching the constitution and then in one split second denounce everything it stands for without a viable explanation. 
Oh they have a viable explanation, and if it is too conservative well you know your answer. If it is moderate then they are willing to bend, the rules a bit, but if they are too lenient then they leave themselves open to controversial enforcing big changes. 
Change is not easy to accept, and can be quite uncomfortable for many individuals especially if it is against their moral principals.

The issues that need to be considered and addressed in today's new age world is politics, because in fact there were only thirteen states responsible for the Constitution when it was first written. Religion was over 2,000 years ago during biblical times when it was first introduced. The world has evolved and we are evolving with it. Making new adjustments and acting upon changes are inevitable in order for us to grow and move forward. We can use these principals as guidelines, but reform must take place in order for us to adapt to the ever changing times, especially now.

Human instinct is not perfect, we are not perfect people, but we are building a society of one sided rules and regulations based on old thinking and abstract principals. This will not evoke unity, it will not solve the problems we face, we cannot build walls to divide us, torture individuals who hate us, ignore or cut off countries and leaders who do not think like us.  Turning into dictators believing that only the American way is the right way, standing tall and proud as a supreme nation over all others.  This approach will never work during this new age of awareness. The level of self consciousness is rising.

There is an old saying I will leave you with. There are choices we have to make as a nation and as a people very soon. 
Our new leader has to understand one thing in life, 
"Water always seeks its own level..."

An Indigo Leader

President Barack Obama

Of The Indigo Vibration

Originally Published on January 31, 2016

The first of three New Age Children who will inherit the earth. Born August 4, 1961, at 7:24 pm. According to President Obama's astrological Solar chart, his Sun (character) is in the sign of Leo the LION, (a leader, proud and loyal to his subjects), element fire. The ascendant or rising sign is the pinnacle point or degree at the beginning of the horizon, (described as the individual's first and natural instinctive reaction to one's own self or mirror) it is in Aquarius, element air. Moon (personality) is in the sign of Virgo, element earth. Mercury (the inner mind) is also in the sign of Virgo. Venus (how we want to receive love) is in Cancer, element water. Mars (ambition, determination, and how we demonstrate our love) is in Gemini, element air. Saturn (the lessons we must learn) is in Aquarius. Jupiter (the outer mind) is in Leo. Uranus ( generational forces of independence and alignment) is in Aries, element fire. Neptune also (generational to the outcome of one's destiny and fate) is in Virgo, and Pluto (generational to the transformation of life's challenges) is in Cancer.

Astrology really?? What's the point, and what does this actually mean? For one thing in a Solar chart, the calculations I have just provided for you display the President embodying of all four (elements) to seek proper balance in life. The element of earth is the ability to take a practical approach, making logical decisions, staying grounded, and using common sense. The element of air is mental stimulation, bright ideas, energies of vision, intellect, stimulation of the mind's growth and expansion. The element of water is emotions, compassion, understanding, sensitive to the human condition in showing great empathy. The element of fire is warm, passionate, ambitious, aggressive, determined, and driven.

Solar Chart by Donna Massa

President Obama to an astrologer is like a bone to a dog, a very interesting subject! Living in the (Age of Aquarius) and being a (New Age Indigo Leader,) the calculations of the signs, and planets I presented to you in his Solar chart indicate he was destined to serve in the field of Politics. His purpose is to influence the political field by demonstrating change and how a new government should and will be implicated. The key placements are his Sun or birth sign Leo, showing great strength, having a dignified manner, amplifying high moral principles, and paternally protective of his loved ones. His Ascendant in Aquarius empowers his intuitive futuristic vision and humanitarian nature. The sign Aquarius - in the planet Saturn - is a major placement for Karma and life reviews. This would indicate that it is inevitable that he serves as an exceptional force of nature, implementing real change and upheaval taking firm action, and risk-taking like never before practiced in Washington. Venus in Cancer implicates kindness, acceptance, forgiveness, sincerity, and protection of loved ones with an unwavering obligation. In other words, his country is his home, his position as commander and chief is like a father, and the nation's people are his children. Jupiter the planet of the outer mind brings out open communication revealing how he expresses himself through speech and writing. His expresses sincere graciousness, patience and tolerance for those who do not share the same values, ideas, or principles. Jupiter also shows how one goes about trusting others and through example trying to improve others' lives. The qualities within the planets and the zodiac signs are just other options in knowing the order of how we may expand our character, personality and life experiences. Our principles and our abilities to travel uncharted courses, how we manage to take on the unexpected, remain versatile, and polish our ability to create a lasting bond with social and economic relationships are all-encompassing.

I could go on and on as to the many positive aspects of President Obama, but I'll remain humble and just say there is a definite reason why he is here now.

Looking at the facts objectively President Obama is destined to help inspire, teach, and serve all of humanity during his lifetime. He will continue to do so even after his presidency. The important message I'm trying to convey here is once the seeds of change have been planted and rooted into the earth, appreciate what has been sowed. It wasn't easy as you well know it took years of toil... Whether you respect or like President Obama is not pertinent to what lies ahead of us. Change is upon us in more ways than we can possibly imagine. This new election will be one of the most important elections in the history of our nation. The timing couldn't be more important and crucial.

The next "Man Or Woman Of The Hour" needs to be the kind of leader that embodies the qualities I have just explained to you through Astrology. If your a nonbeliever in Astrology then just embrace these qualities and match them up to the next candidate who can fit this mold. If you're unable to find a match, then try examining the next best candidate to follow in his footsteps. Take a blindfold and earplugs so you can no longer see or hear. You are alone now and there is silence without influence and interference. Remember to try and lead with your heart, and listen to the first voice that is always right in your head, for it is the voice of reason.

If we make the wrong decision it will be costly, and there will be no going back. Everything that was planted and rooted will be flooded by the waters, swallowed up by the earth, swept away by the air, and perish by the heat of the Sun...

The Book

Money

What happens when you receive extra copies of your first book and it is finally published? You feel a rush with a sense of wonder and excitement. You ask yourself, will people enjoy the book? Will they truly understand it's content? Will it become a bestseller? Would the books popularity land me on a radio talk show? Perhaps finding a local book store who's manager will find my book interesting and worthy of having me appear for a book signing. This advantage would bring me prestige and indeed attract a larger audience. Could the story someday be interesting enough to attract a screen writer? Finally, will it sell globally? All these questions went through my mind but never once did I ever ask myself if I would make allot of money.

It has been almost three years since the publishing of my book and many of these questions have not come to fruition. There is an emotional letdown and the question now shifts to did I do something wrong? Did I not spend enough money to market or advertise the book properly? Was my audience restricted? Did people not like the story? Did they not fully understand its content? Did I gather enough reviews? The sales have slowed way down and there isn't as many royalties coming in. Did I lack the proper channels or connection's. Why am I not selling any more books?

These exact feelings mimic many other areas in our lives that just don't pan out for some reason, whether it's a book, an invention, a work of art, an audition, a part, a film, a speech, a business proposal, not getting the job, not making the team, non acceptance into the college of your choice, missing out on the best offer on a home, and so much more that happens in life when we fall short.

I believe it may have to do with three important ingredients. The first ingredient has to do with being connected, like, who you know or who they may know. The second is timing, and the third is a pinch of luck! Money still has no place in this scenario yet, or does it? I now believe it is the forth ingredient. Does money make things happen? Can it buy us happiness, love, popularity, fulfillment, good health, power, control, recognition, success, and even luck? Does money bring you peace of mind, stability and security? I believe Money does indeed play an influential part in many of the scenarios I have touched upon.

Money definition: The most common medium of exchange, the official currency issued by a government or national bank, and wealth reckoned in terms of money. In order to buy anything of material worth essentially you need money.

Going back to the subject of my book the questions I should be asking myself is, did I need more money to promote my book? Interested readers will purchase my book if it is constantly in their face. Did I spend enough money in marketing and advertising? Did I need to hire a publisher and an agent? If I had done everything right and spent the money needed would my book have sold any better? Looking at this scenario from a different perspective interested readers could prioritize and ask themselves, "I really have to buy this book no matter what it costs," or my favorite, "I don't care how much it costs I have to have it!" Have I exhausted all measures and exploited every possible tool using social media? Did I work through all the right channels to expose my book to different readers. Perhaps I failed to use money as a tool instead of thinking about as just a means to an end.

I truly thought I spent enough money on publishing my product? I did have a budget so keep that in mind, but should I have paid a professional to read a rough draft first before skipping to the next page? Yes this I could have done. If I had paid an editor to review my story the results would have been essential to the popularity of my book. If it wasn't written well enough it could have been corrected. So in this case spending the extra money would have worked in my favor.

We are conditioned to think that money can fix whatever is broken or that needs to be repaired. Without money there is little to no success rating. It can improve and richen our lives, fulfill our hearts desires, feed our careers and even at times buy our way out of trouble.

We live in a society where money becomes the object of desire. It is controlling everything. It is said that money is power and could lead to greed and at times may be infectious. In history it has been known for bringing countries and empires to it's knees. Wealth is growth, independence and prestige! How many times have you heard these sayings "It's just money," or "Money makes the world go round," "Money is the root of all evil." The best one comes from the bible. "No one can serve two masters."

All of us perceive money differently it is quite a diverse subject. People all over the world use it, handle it and discuss it daily. Money speaks loudly, it motivates and inspires us to push harder. It supports us in the way we choose to live our lives. Money in the wrong hands can spawn evil, greed, lust, conspiracy, and war.

I suppose if we took all the money away in one day's time eventually the world would stop, silence would be deafening, and for the first time people would all react in the same ways. Mankind would finally realize that without money we are basically all in the same situation. The world would stop, and suddenly all we would have is ourselves and each other. Whether we are alone, with loved ones, coworkers or standing next to complete strangers the reality of the situation would slowly register in our brains. That in fact is there is no money anywhere that it is all spent and there is nothing left. Money is no longer of any use to us. Humanity is without a cushion, or a ceiling feeling quite vulnerable without a security blanket or an umbrella of protection. All we have left is literally free for the taking. No charge, no penalties no restrictions. Money has no meaning it serves no purpose there is no material use for it therefore it is no longer needed.

So I guess the question I should be asking myself now is what kind of world would it be without money? Everything in the world would be free. There would be no worries, no anxieties, no stress, no competition, no deals and all those questions and analogies I just presented to you would mean nothing. Can such a world exist without money? With no money would there be order, desire, ambition, drive, determination and the will to succeed. Are humans conditioned to own something of value, obtain wealth, feel a sense of prestige, honor and self esteem? Money undoubtedly is what makes our world go around. Obtaining money is a way of life and without it we would not survive for very long. The poor and homeless get by barely. It all depends on how you interpret money, your priorities and what you choose to do with it. If you end up buying my book I'll indeed be grateful not because of the money but for the sheer pleasure and inspiration you received while reading it..

Blank Canvas

 

Color

When an artist decides they want to create a painting, or an illustration they start with a white piece of canvas or a white piece of paper called Bristal Board. If we were to leave this canvas or Bristal Board and do nothing to it, it would remain white which is the absence of all color. Once we add color it grows into something special. It speaks to us with vivid imagination, style, and beauty. With the use of many colors the viewer feels tremendous emotion, a deeper connection to the subject matter, and feels joy, or an inquisitive spark of energy that awakens their mind. If we didn't have color what would our world be like, or what would the earth look like, even worse what would we look like?

What I'm getting at with this analysis, is there is a growing unbalance in our country which by the way has been reffered to as "The Melting Pot" with a prejudice attitude about peoples color. This trend seems to be infiltrating into the Media, Performing Arts, Politics, and the Film Industry.

When we look at another person what is the first thing we notice? Their eyes, mouth, hair, features, expression, height, size, walk, figure, what? Do we look at their color? Ahh if we do that then that's not fair, because we're not seeing the real person. In a matter of seconds our brains have already processed pieces of information as to the physicalities of that person. If we have long enough our brains then start to imagine all sorts of crazy thoughts about that person. 
Not fair!
What about the soul of that person can you feel that? Probably not, but that person has a soul he or she wouldn't be here if they didn't. 
Do we have to know about the soul of that person? Come on give me a break! Probably not, but the core is the center of a persons soul. It radiates outwardly and we feel something immediately usually through eye contact in one split second of a glance. 
Then where does prejudice and judgement come into play here? In one split second why would color even be an issue. Are we already programed, or is information embeded so deep within our subconscious that within an instant like an alarm going off "Different Color!!!"

If we didn't have color our world would be boring, plain, lifeless, and depressing. Color adds beauty, contrast, shadows values, shades and hues. When you mix colors they blend and become new and different colors. Colors bring interest, diversion, and uniqueness to our world and withour color I'm afraid our brains couldn't possibly comprehend such a tragic loss. So as with any painting or illustration they all have a different story, their colors enlighten, inspire, shape and define the very core or essence of their individual beauty.

Humanity in the 21 century I would like to compare to as a fine art painting or illustration. Every person is uniquely different, they all have a story, and each and every person is like the broad stroke of a paint prush or a Prismacolor pencil line with a distinct purpose in mind. The colors blend and come together in unison to create magic! All in one split second of a glance...

Rare Sight In The Skies Above

The (Double Rainbow) Over the past year of 2015 many people from all over the world have witnessed rare double rainbows appearing in their skies. I myself witnessed this unforgettable experience during the summer after a heavy rain storm. It literally took my breath away and my reaction was to cry happy tears of joy. “Why is this happening” I said to myself, it must be telling us something for anything this beautiful and so grandeur to appear suddenly in the sky. I believe without a doubt it forces us to look up and stop to admire it’s breath taken beauty but why?

I first researched the religious symbolism. In the Genesis account, a rainbow appears right after the great worldwide flood that brought in order to remove sinful and evil-minded man from the earth. It symbolized God's mercy and the formal agreement He made with Noah (representing mankind) not to destroy the world in such a way again. 

And God said, "This is the sign of the covenant (formal agreement) which I make between Me and you and every living creature with you, for everlasting generations: I set My rainbow in the cloud, and it shall be the sign of the this agreement between Me and the earth . . . and the waters shall no more become a flood to destroy man."
In Ezekiel's first vision from God, known as the "wheel in the middle of a wheel" vision, the prophet Ezekiel compares the glory of God to what he actually saw. Eziekiel who is better known as Archangel Zeikiel said "As the rainbow appears in the cloud in the day of rain, so was the appearance of His goodness and brightness."

In the prophetic book of Revelation, which foretells the end of man's rule on the earth and the coming of Jesus to set up his Kingdom. The first mentioning of the rainbow in Revelation is for told when the apostle John uses the rainbow to describe the glory and power of God.
It is also mentioned in the scriptures that God while sitting on his thrown in his kingdom of heaven is surrounded by pure light and the majesty of a rainbow.

I then researched the spiritual aspects and symbolism of a double rainbow. The first rainbow represents the material and the second the spiritual. It is meant to help us align both our outer world with our inner spirit. Rainbow symbolism graciously bestows the energy of blessings, they intuitively tell us to hold on to hope to believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that blessings are upon us, and to follow our hearts and our desires.

The Rainbow is the merging of seven colors of light. A perfect harmonic combination which produces a symbol of beauty, promise and enlightenment. We are living in unpredictable, uncertain and dangerous times. Perhaps this rare double dome of heavenly beauty serves as a reminder coming to us as a sign from the heavens, and wisdom from the universe. This aura of magnificent colors is saying to us humans that we need to reflect within, as compared to the rainbow's light, reflection, clarity and purpose. The significant number seven are the colors of the rainbow blending together in unity as one. This could be our answer that keeps showing up in the skies after such earthly turbulence and devastation, tempestuous power, greed and control, and the never ending battles between good & evil.

The rare double rainbow keeps appearing in our skies and reminding us we need to act as a replicate of it's symbolism, honoring its agreement, its mercy, and only then will we begin to understand. It is only through unification that humanity will endure and finally find peace and harmony on this earth. I believe through my quest perhaps I have found my answer to the meaning of the unique and rare
(Double Rainbow...) <3